300110- Saturday

Randoms;

After watching a slideshow of dear friends getting married, made me tear a little bit.

with cheesy music and amazing photos of Levi & pornbaba it was so beautiful!, if ur wondering who are these people well they are my sister’s uni professors, but not anymore they got married and they love my sister very much being one of their closest student.

I wonder how long will they be in love?!, i really hope forever! but isnt that exagerated, i mean how long will u keep fighting for the “Love” to come back and how long are you gonna keep fighting until you realise its over!. Can it be over?! i mean the love of two people once their love was so strong they kissed and made love and said “i love you” to each other can that be easily washed away?.

You may think by now “oh how naive” but i do believe in love there is love just not the type that every girl dreams of, now hearing my aunt and sister talk about men as if their toys makes me upset, i thought to myself “wow marriage is tough and allot of hard work” i didnt know that earlier, until when my aunt and sister were saying that men can be trained i thought to myself “there dogs :S?!” their like NO SILLY men do what you teach them to do, and honestly as much as i dont want to say it, its true. I tried it on several people rather not mention names
its true im not a sexist but every gender has its positive and negative sides!

im thinking on working on a story this Vacation! hmm i dont know, i really dont wanna waste almost 25 days at home doing nothing. so if anyone has anything i can join do tell!! (wth im talking to myself) anyway, for now its all randomness.

i cried yesterday and i had a “TALK” with dad (NO not THAT talk), he was like why are u sad? i told dad why everyone here is stupid only thinking of now and as much as their house can reach to, never thinking of how high they can go, he said; Noor the sky is your limit you can do what ever you want to, you knw i wont stop you if its good for you, im your dad i want you to be happy. and as much as i wanted to believe that i knew deep down in the end he is part of “THIS” society and got effected by it like a disease he already catched it, am i the only survivor?! even my sister who i thought just like me was a survivor proved me wrong, she too was one of them. I enjoyed talking even though i was shivering and dad was scared on why i was shivering but i just told him i was pissed off and just plain angry but the truth is i was dissapointed and seeing everything i hoped from this world shatter into million of pieces right infront of me wasnt something i wanted to see, it moved every emotion in me.

ps; did i mention how sad i'am that January is ending soon, this month is my month i feel so happy whenever i write "January" i call myself "January girl" for a reason.

until next time.....