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“Omg yes, we won !!” screamed Noor when the news said that they have won the competition.

they WON. It was the April of 2009 when Noor’s team won the JA business company program. They actually build a company on a product or a service, sell shares to people and there were VP’s and President, it was a REAL company well almost a real one.

It was their school which had two companies or two teams and a boy’s school and another girls school.

So it was four companies.

it was tense between her school and the boy’s school, because they were the best.

She thought that they won them over in their presentation because they we’re good in English and were funny and exciting yet professional; yeah Noor was 16 at the time she felt quiet special.

Noor’s job was the VP of production so she kind of did almost everything in the business, she honestly believed that the production department did most work and the rest were just doing shit, but yeah anyways they told them if they won the competition they would travel to Lebanon for the finals and there will be 12 arabic countries!!.

THAT was enough to boost the team up, Noor worked her ass off because she really deserved It, she worked really hard. And guess what? Yeah THEY won.!!!

And the trip to the finals was on the summer of 2009!!!


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hey, well this is my first time writing a story, yeah yeah this will be a story and it WONT be boring TRUST ME.

its full of action .. i wont say more 3shan u read it :p lol !

anyway i knw it might suck here and there, but excuse me lol i always tried writing stories but it never worked..

btw this IS a real story, very interesting and it has so many good memories *sigh*

so yeah!

until next time…

300110- Saturday

Randoms;

After watching a slideshow of dear friends getting married, made me tear a little bit.

with cheesy music and amazing photos of Levi & pornbaba it was so beautiful!, if ur wondering who are these people well they are my sister’s uni professors, but not anymore they got married and they love my sister very much being one of their closest student.

I wonder how long will they be in love?!, i really hope forever! but isnt that exagerated, i mean how long will u keep fighting for the “Love” to come back and how long are you gonna keep fighting until you realise its over!. Can it be over?! i mean the love of two people once their love was so strong they kissed and made love and said “i love you” to each other can that be easily washed away?.

You may think by now “oh how naive” but i do believe in love there is love just not the type that every girl dreams of, now hearing my aunt and sister talk about men as if their toys makes me upset, i thought to myself “wow marriage is tough and allot of hard work” i didnt know that earlier, until when my aunt and sister were saying that men can be trained i thought to myself “there dogs :S?!” their like NO SILLY men do what you teach them to do, and honestly as much as i dont want to say it, its true. I tried it on several people rather not mention names
its true im not a sexist but every gender has its positive and negative sides!

im thinking on working on a story this Vacation! hmm i dont know, i really dont wanna waste almost 25 days at home doing nothing. so if anyone has anything i can join do tell!! (wth im talking to myself) anyway, for now its all randomness.

i cried yesterday and i had a “TALK” with dad (NO not THAT talk), he was like why are u sad? i told dad why everyone here is stupid only thinking of now and as much as their house can reach to, never thinking of how high they can go, he said; Noor the sky is your limit you can do what ever you want to, you knw i wont stop you if its good for you, im your dad i want you to be happy. and as much as i wanted to believe that i knew deep down in the end he is part of “THIS” society and got effected by it like a disease he already catched it, am i the only survivor?! even my sister who i thought just like me was a survivor proved me wrong, she too was one of them. I enjoyed talking even though i was shivering and dad was scared on why i was shivering but i just told him i was pissed off and just plain angry but the truth is i was dissapointed and seeing everything i hoped from this world shatter into million of pieces right infront of me wasnt something i wanted to see, it moved every emotion in me.

ps; did i mention how sad i'am that January is ending soon, this month is my month i feel so happy whenever i write "January" i call myself "January girl" for a reason.

until next time.....

Wed (15-April)

I've hurt so many people in my life, I admit it I don’t do it in purpose I just do it... I think 'Now' I know why my sister would always call me a 'selfish-bitch'. Yeah were not that close anymore...

I'm a loner that’s the truth so it's hard for me to keep on checking other's feelings especially if I don’t think I did something wrong and usually I' am wrong I just hate admitting it
I'm independent and I think I would suck at relationships, because it takes allot of commitment which I don’t have.

Today a friend of mine lost her opportunity to be with her true love because of some woman that didn’t shut her mouth, and now she regrets the past but she didn’t mean to… we all make mistakes people more than other but none the less Mistakes it is.

I don’t know what to do to make her happy but I tried to comfort her it's just heart breaking seeing her like that she said she wanted to die or even if she didn’t die she's just here by body only … I don’t know if she really loves him but I never saw her this devastated.

Hmm, I don’t know what to do anymore I can't be for someone 24/7 and want to work for CAS hours and still study … I can't do that so I don’t know what I'm going to do ufff such a sucky feeling, at-least NOTHING … OMG … I really suck, WOW I never thought I suck that much I never believed my sister's words until this moment yeah I' am a Selfish-Bitch.

14 Facts :P

OMG i really want to write this but i REAAAAAALLY got to go PEE .. WOOOO ..

sorry u know i love u .. hahahh .. OMG i cant handle it !! @_@ .. WAAAAAAAAIT !

BAAAAAACK .. WoHooo .. im feeling GREAT right now .. hahaha ANYWHO !!

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some people asked me to write 14 facts about ME xD lol

so here it comes =P



1-i have a cat called "Pheoby" yes pheoby as pheoby in Friends lol



2-i LOVE to read, i have more then 100 books in the house.. arabic + english but i prefer English



3- i wear Glasses, yeah im a NERD .. u have a PROBLEM with THAT >.> lool



4- im in High School, most of girls dont want to leave school i CANT WAIT to go to UNI im a ADDICTED TO COLLAGES.. xD



5- my room is PINK .. -_- .. so NOT me .. lol



6- every song i listen to and i LIKE it,i make a Music Video for it in my head .. lol and i start imagining it in the car when i go to school and in the way back :P



7- i DANCE all the time, lol .. i LOVE to dance its my way to take all my energy out.



8- any book, song, movie and dance .. can make me Cry, im VERY emotional



9- i just started wearing HEELS .. LOL .. and the PAIN is KILLING ME .. :P



10- April, 3rd was the FIRST time i go to a 3aza "funeral" and i WISH i NEVER go again !



11- i HATE smokers. my Grandpa died of Lung Cancer because of smoking and until this day just the smell of smoke can make me feel sick and hate the person that is smoking .. SO DONT !!



12- i have an imaginary friend called "Jozef,yosuf", i get scared of the dark until now and he stand beside my bed everynight to protect me of the evil cretures that wants to attack me. and hes been with me since i was 9 years old, and well i love him so much.



13- my DREAM is to go to Thailand AGAIN and go to the Tiger Temple AGAIN, and just live with them and be a part of that wonderful family i saw .. i LOVE TIGERS =*



14- and last but not least :P , i like to eat chocolate-banana sandwitch lol, u put nutella and pieces of banana on a slice of bread with a glass of milk and eat AWAY loooooool ..



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and that it :D

hope i made u happy love =*

THAT'S NOTHING :P i could have wrote about 50 facts xD LOL

what more ?

Being hurt by an enemy is Fine, but a so called "Friend" !

We all suffered of this one way or another same old story "friends FOR EVER! The next day the friend tells her secrets to her enemy and the girl gets heartbroken and cries her eyes out then becomes an outcast" but to me I understand when an enemy does it but a "Friend" I never understood how come a Friend would do that doesn’t she have a heart ?! People have changed I don’t believe in True friends no more I mean I have "friends" but I can never tell them everything... Don’t Blame Me... I've seen too much of this world that they should make a movie of my life.

I can never forget yesterday when a friend… more than a Friend even… does something like that in-front of me I mean I was shocked I even looked away and just stared at the floor holding myself not to cry all I was saying "free it's ok!, DON'T cry you're not weak!" but I was betraying myself… Literally… and I could feel the tears falling down my cheeks and they felt so cold but I still thank god that I was wearing my huge sun glasses and nothing showed.

I spent the whole day at school thinking what to do and what pissed me off that they acted so normal after it like nothing happened and I didn’t want to ruin the day because I skipped school to see them and we had so much fun until I noticed how much they respected me! (Sarcasm!) but still I can't ignore them I can't do anything because I'm so Damn weak!, I can't sit and watch them like that No NO! I won't sit and be like a Joke! I know people SOME people see it as nothing but I see It as something and she knows it!

I mean in the end why am I upset?, because when you respect your friend and give them everything you have of love u expect the SAME treatment! Like I treat my friends the way I like to be treated but when they do the opposite, they get in my bad side and I feel like nothing like shit when they do that I mean how could they?! Don’t they feel?! It may be a Misunderstanding but I'm pretty sure it's not.

That life for you!!

Enjoy it! Nothing is worth it.

Family !?

i know My normal day can be heaven for most BUT it's Not !

trust me when i say it SUCKS !

* giving my feet a good rub OH PAIN ! *

Yes going to school and Walking all day gives you Pain .. Yep Today i have TONS of H.W'z, quizes and WORK !

oh well .. You know what They say ! u always have to work to gain satisfaction -_- .. ( They = Mom + Dad )

My family is Pretty messed up ! and sometimes i wish that it was just US .. ( US = Me, Siz, A-Jay, Totte, Nulan, Fa9ool)

*Hint: siz is my Czn sara, A-Jay my friend sara, Totte my small brother, Nulan my big sister and Fa9ool my big brother.

OH GOD we would have SO Much FUN !

sometimes when i go to my grandma's (Dad's side) house i feel so Isolated .. like My family doesnt Belong there, I know they dont like as ! it SHOWS ! but being with them and acting normal like we Really care about each other .. since my grandpa Died *allah yr7mah * it Never really felt the same we just actually went there for Him ! and Now i feel like i was Cheated
its Not fair i was Just a KID .. im suposed to spend time with him ..
i only saw him Once or Twice a year ( for Eid ) .. im supossed to Hug him and feel Loved !
even though i didnt see him much, Never really talked to him .. just seeing his Face was enough holding him close and hugging him and feeling his renckled skin was ALL i ever had with Him !
its just Never works when we try to get close, The Harm was Done. !

Dont even let me Start with my Other family (Mom's side) lets just say with all do respect that my grandma is a Drama Queen sometimes she goes LOCO (loco = crazy) serouisly i cant even stand it but she is my grandma and i love her Allot .. but my grandpa is my Love, he is so Sweet ! and Innocent and AW ! when he talks about the GOOD OLD DAYS ! its just heart breaking seeing him so weak, but i wont lie they all are LOCO's.. sometimes!!.. no let me rephrase that Most of the time. !

but you know in the END, they are MY Family.

No matter how much i try to hate them, curse them, feel bad for them. they will always be there for Me .. That's what Family's For !

People Family is Family .. you can Never Cut them out of your Life .. NEVER ! .. so be Nice to each other !

and so there Blood runs throw My vains and for that i will Forever be Greatful !

Dreams !

Ever wished to have the opportunity to acomplish you'r Dreams ?!

were there anyone to help you ?

what happens when you have Tons of Dreams which just went to waste because No one ever gave you the chance to achieve them !?

when I was a kid I Always Dreamt .. my imagination would always run Wiled !

one Day I wanted to be a social worker the next I wanna save Tigers in Thailand a moment later I wanna make a Movie !

to Me Dreams are my only Escape when everything goes Wrong, when No one listens, when everybody lashes out on me !

I mean arent we all here to acomplish something or dont you work to acomplish you'r Dream ?!

believe it or not I really believe that instead of wasting my time Studying things that im Sure I wont major, that I should have the time to Start acomplishing My Dreams .. they look so far away !

I want to make a Difference ! .. Who doesn't ?

I want to do something Im Really good at and feel complete with myself !
instead im studying MATH which I must say that were NOT such Good Friends ( school Drama !)

dont You wanna make a Difference ! ..
make the World say " you'r name " helped as and was a Wonderfull person and we will always remember him !

I Sure Would !

Imagine those Dreams.. when you used to say I'm gonna do it !! but life takes you away from your target .. either you have a new born, sickness, poorness, you name it !

I just want to say to those people who Can make their Dreams come true ! What are you waiting for ? .. make it happen !!

I dont know why im writing this but since i can write whatever i want so Why Not ..

so Thanx and Wait for Stories to come !

sorry for spelling or grammer mistake.. im still new to this =P